and undivided.When a child is born, its consciousness is one
There is neither a conscious mind nor an unconscious mind; there are no such
divisions. But before long the process of compartmentalization begins --
because we will start teaching the child what is right and what is wrong, we
will preach what is good and what is bad, what he should do and what he should
not do. When we go on teaching the child, "You are not to do this, this
is bad," what is the child to do? Nothing dies just because we categorize
it as bad. We tell him that anger is bad. The child hears and understands, but
the anger in him is not going to cease to exist just because we say it is bad
-- because anger is a natural instinct. The child has not learned to feel
anger, he is born with it; anger is as much a part of him as his body, his
eyes, his hands.
Nature uses anger. Anger is energy. Without anger, the child will not
survive. Anger will give him the strength for struggle in his life, anger will
give him strength to stand up against conflict anger will give him the drive.
Anger is an unavoidable feature of his life's journey.
We say, "Sex is bad," but sex is not something that has been
learned from the books and movies; otherwise, how would the birds and beasts
learn it? They don't go to movies -- though our so-called saints blame the
movies for spoiling people -- nor do they read sex literature, but sex is
there. So the child is born with it. We say that sex is bad, and those people
who say sex is bad have given birth to this child through their sex. Had there
been no sex, the child would not be here. Each child is a living symbol of
sex. Each and every cell of his body is constructed of particles of sex. His
whole body is a crystallized form of sex. And we say it is bad! What is the
child to do?
For the baby, nothing is bad and nothing is good... yet. He has not even
thought about such things, we implant such thinking in him. And we are
powerful. We reward him for doing what we call right, and punish him for what
we call wrong. And it is not we alone who are labeling things as bad, the
whole society all around is calling it wrong. The child is alone. He is very
natural, but he is alone, weak, helpless; and he is dependent on those who are
labeling our impulses as wrong. It is they who feed him and clothe him; they
can beat him and punish him. What is the child to do?
If "wrong" could be brought to an end just by saying so, the
child could bring his wrong impulses to an end. But no, it does not come to an
end, so the child begins to repress it. Repression begins and whatever the
parents and society call wrong, the child relegates it to the basement of his
mind. And it is all this hidden away stuff that becomes the unconscious. This
is how the unconscious is born.
Whatever is kept in the back cellar, the child has no wish to see, because
if it is seen the child will become restless and troubled. So the child begins
to create an inner blindness so that he cannot see the bad things in himself.
You may have noticed that at the first sign of fear, children close their
eyes. Perhaps they think that if they cannot see, then the fear will go away.
This is the logic of the ostrich. On seeing an enemy, the ostrich buries its
head in the sand. This way it cannot see the enemy, so it thinks there is no
enemy there. What is not seen, does not exist! Only what is seen, exists. What
is the child to do? We have no idea of the child's dilemma. The things that he
has been told are bad, are now hidden within himself; he stops looking at
them, turns his back on them. It is this turning of the back that gives birth
to the unconscious.
Thus, you will be surprised to know that you cannot go back into your
memory earlier than when you were four years old. Go back and you will find
that your memory stops at a certain point, and you cannot go beyond that
point. Five years, four years, three for those who can look back furthest --
that's all. There it stops. Those three or four years at the beginning of your
life you have completely wiped out. But if you are hypnotized and asked, those
memories appear. It is not that the memory was really erased, but just that
you have turned your back on it.
Why should you be unable to remember the first four years of your life?
Psychologists have been very anxious to know. After all, you were conscious.
The child less than four years old lives in a world of conscious experiencing;
there are events happening, there are happinesses and unhappinesses happening.
Why is their remembrance lost? The scientific finding of psychologists is that
we turn our backs on that which makes us unhappy -- this is our way of getting
rid of unhappiness. But everybody says that the childhood days were such happy
days! Had they really been happy, those memories of the first four years would
be available -- because we preserve the memories of happiness, it is the
unhappiness that we tend to forget. Had childhood been happiness, it would
have crystallized in our memory; we would never have lost sight of it. But it
is not the whole of our childhood that we remember, and herein lies the reason
why we have the idea that childhood was such happiness -- because the
unhappiness is forgotten. Those four years that we have forgotten have become
our unconscious.
It is for this reason that Freud and his followers, who have worked most
deeply on the human mind, see it as their first task to restore the lost
memories of childhood to their psychiatric patients. All psychoanalysis is the
process of going back to the childhood memory. "Whatever your illness
today," they say, "its root cause lies hidden in your childhood, and
the illness cannot disappear until the cause is uprooted."
All that we have repressed during our childhood will follow us like a
shadow throughout our life, influencing our personality and coloring all our
actions. You may go mad when you are sixty; but the seed of your madness might
be lying in those first four years. Over the years that seed has become a
tree, but its roots are in the childhood. If we dig down to those roots and
cut them away, the whole tree will die. Hence the preoccupation of
psychoanalysis with childhood.
The unconscious is created out of repression. Repression is the child of
nonacceptance. Your impulses are lying hidden in your unconscious. Everything
that is suppressed is very powerful. Society has labeled it bad because it is
powerful. Because society is afraid that if it is not repressed, it is so
powerful that it will shatter society to pieces, it will destroy it.
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